[Disclaimer: This isn’t directed at the fandom or any group or person in it, I love you all. It’s directed more at Adam & Eddy and showrunners in general. This is just something a previous post got me thinking about. It probably qualifies as a rant, though, it may be a bit extreme (I dunno, feels reasonable to me), and I am probably going to curse a lot.]
I’m sure some of you know I’m fairly optimistic when it comes to Swan Queen. I think maybe it can be taken as somewhat naive on my part, like I’ve just never shipped f/f before and I don’t know the odds, like I don’t know how miserable it can be. But, trust me, I do. I’m old enough to have had my share of doomed f/f ships. So I got to thinking about how that’s possible; how can I be aware of the reality of the situation, and yet still have such faith? And I realized, it’s a different kind of belief than even I ever knew.
My optimism isn’t passive. It’s not cute or sweet or willingly ignorant. It is aggressive, deliberate, and unforgiving. Truth be told, it’s an act of defiance more than an act of faith.
I know that it’s very likely OUAT is only queer-baiting us. I know that’s the most probable scenario. I know there’s no precedence for a ship like this ever becoming canon.
Yet I still believe in it. When I look at the facts, when I think about the show and the themes they’ve laid out, the clues they’ve dropped… I see Swan Queen.
Take out the heteronormative mindset we’re all conditioned with, and it’s not illogical to see this ship heading towards canon somewhere down the line. The only reason anyone says it’ll never be canon, the only reason it’s called a crack ship or a fantasy ship, is because it’s two women.
And if they choose to drag us along, tease us, with no intention of ever really considering it for canon, then I’m going to choose to wholeheartedly believe in it anyway.
Because I’m sick of signing this goddamn unspoken agreement we have with shows that bait us. That invisible contract that says, “We’re going to queer-bait you, we won’t admit we are, but we will, and you don’t get to be mad about it when it’s not canon, because you knew we were baiting you all along.”
I’ve agreed to this too many times before, because it’s all we’re given and it’s better than nothing, right? Well fuck that. I’m done.
If they’re going to bait us and pretend they’re not, then I’m going to ship it and pretend I don’t know they are.